Endorphins. That’s addictive …

I’m lazy, very lazy… Like seriously, lazy… And I like my habits, good or bad, I like them.

Consistency is helping me survive in this difficult world. I’ve started gym last month and now, I cannot imagine myself not going. I’m not a gym freak, I’m not doing exercises for hours but I need my 30 minutes a day, every day.

Well, apart from weekends 😉 like I’ve said I’m lazy. I have managed to build a habit and going to the gym every day after work. I’m driving automatically to my gym car park. And even when I have difficult day, well… I’m already on car park so going. Bag prepared every day.

I never even though I will be one of these people… Going to gym daily… Well I was sure that treadmill must be so boring, it is. Very… Then I’ve got time to think about different things, set up everything in my head. It’s me time.

If you ever think to go… Just go! At least try! Seriously, no one is judging. This was stopping me the most, me fat, at gym, everyone will watch. And no one is, people don’t bother, they came to do something for themselves.

Definitely try! If you don’t like it or can’t that’s fine, there are many different things to do! I’ve learned that live is to short to be scared all the time!

Gym. First time ever.

Three weeks ago I’ve started going to the gym, never been and I haven’t had an idea what to expect.

I’ve made an appointment with one of the trainer’s and she showed me some of the machines and how to use them.

I’m determined, didn’t give up after one day despite my body being in agony as my training was very limited.

I was going to the gym every day after work and was very disappointed as it looked like I’m not looking any weight. The only positive thing I’ve seen was relax. Working out my daily stresses was great!

I weighed myself today, three weeks, 6.2 kg less. It’s amazing how little time daily is enough to change everything.

I’m continuing my journey, trying to eat better and moving more. I’m still classed as obese, but at least I moved from class 2 to 1 😉.

Keep your thumbs up 🙂

Do the things you afraid to do….

I used as a title quote from my favourite motivational song / speech… I won the most of good things in my life following this rule. I won my husband 😉 as i invited him for a prom two months later after we met and haven’t spoken at all 😊.

I’ve got my son where my pregnancy was difficult, I was 19. I finished it technician course being a young mum; started my own business.

Investing in business despite having no money, closing business due to poor health… Going abroad alone to earn money and take it back to Poland… Staying in the UK and taking my family with me, renting a flat and buying a car a few months after…

There are many things which I can be proud about. At least they are a good reason for me. I fight my demons, my body and my mind.. going forward I’m not planning to stop.

This week after a month of thinking I went to gym… Just for a walk around but I finally decided to go and face my fears… I’m fat, not overweight, just fat… And I need to do something about it because I’m the only person who can do something about it so I’m doing. I’m afraid. Not gonna lie, Monday is my test hour and I’ll need to face my demons. Wish me luck guys!

L

A farm in UK – my dream

Since I was little I was in love with a farm life, freedom and responsibilities. I was born in Poland and first 19 years of my life I spent on farm, helping my family to grow vegetables, fruits, care about animals, cook food and work on a field.

Collecting eggs, milking a cow or picking mushrooms, this was something I was doing on daily basis. Really enjoying this type of life.

I have moved to UK with my family in 2014, to start from fresh. I started to climb on the career ladder, hard from beginning, long way but finally I have reached the level I was keep trying to achieve…

I am very successful, jumped over 5 steps on the career ladder in past 3 years. I was sure, that achieving that much will make me so happy but it didn’t. I love my job, there is no doubt, but I do have a feeling in my gut that this path is not mine despite enjoying it. I always dreamt about farm life, growing, foraging and picking…

I feel inside that nature, farming, food etc is the life I would love to live. My husband is in love with this life as well. We have set up fundraising in gofundme to help us achieve our dreams.

This is the link to our fundraising, there are some extras for good people who want to support our goal. https://gofund.me/f353a3b2

We would like to have a farm in UK, producing eggs, veggies, fruits, plants, herbs and mushrooms. Invite people to give them farm experience.

I bake bread, cook, grow vegetables, mushrooms, herbs, picking mushrooms and herbs, already. I would like to share my experience with others. Show them how beautiful and satisfying this kind of life can be.

Please help us to achieve our dreams if you can!

Choices choices choices

Are you keep choosing wrong like me? Wrong food, not my colour, not right dress? We are keep making choices, good, bad, small and big.

Making a choice and sticking to your decision are actually two totally different things… Are they?

Sticking to decision is actually a route of good choices. Nothing more. We are imaging how difficult is something, how difficult is to loose weight, how difficult is to stop eating sweets, chocolate. Well… It’s not super easy but it’s also not super hard.

If we are motivated enough and not loosing our goal from sight, we can do everything. Really. It’s not a joke, you and you, and you. We all can.

All my life I was convinced I’m not good enough, I’m not slim enough, I’m not smart enough, I’m not pretty enough etc. All my life I was concentrated on this how I’m not good enough.

I’ll tell you a secret.. actually I am. I’m good enough, and you are, we all are. Look at this from different perspective, it’s hard to change what you think but it’s something what you can do. And we are back on the importance of choice. And I’ll stress this once again, choose to respect yourself, choose to feel good about yourself, choose to admire yourself, choose wisely.

One choice after the other, you will choose healthier food, orange instead of chocolate, walk instead of pizza night etc. Try to make good choices, not for others but for yourself. There should be no one more important for you more than you, your health and wellness. Make yourself happy and healthy, other good things will come when you’ll start to feel good about yourself.

I’m here with you on that journey. Making myself healthier, happier and worthy. Let’s all choose good for ourselves and our families.